İlgisizliğinde

Senin, kendini benden                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

Uzak tutmaktaki gayen

Sanki bana bir cezan,  

Sanma azalır sevdam

Sana aşkımdan yılmam.                                                                                                                                                                                                    

İşlemiş gönlüm kalbime;

Aşk ağını öre, öre,                                           

Kalbim de örmüş beynime

Ve bedenen her yerime,

Maneviyatım seninle                                                                                         

Ama benim şikâyetim                                                                                                                                                                                                                

Aşkıma ilgisizliğine!                                                                                                                            

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Sık sık olur bende;                                                                                                                                                                                            

Bir his ki ümitle                                                                                                                                                                                                                         

Kıpırdar durur içimde                                                                                                                                                                       

Ve de sezgilerimde,

Yerinden fırlar sanki                                                                                                                                                                                

O an Kalbim göğsümde 

Ama benim şikâyetlerim                                                                                                                                                                         

Aşkıma değer vermeyişine

Ve bana olan ilgisizliğine!           

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Ne oluyor sanırsın sen                                                                                                                                                                                                              

Bana böyle zulmettikçe                                                                                                                                                                                              

Başın mı eriyor göğe.

Eğilmez, bükülmez sanma;                                

Bir gün eğilir bükülür senin de                                                                                                                                                                      

Bütün kibirliliğin de başın ile. 

Ki incinmeni istemem                                                                                                                                                                                             

Varlığın yeter gönlüme 

Yeter ki sen üzülme

Varsın viran olsun gönlüm 

Ama benim şikâyetim                                                                                                                                                                                   

Aşkıma ilgisizliğinedir ilgisizliğine! 

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Dilim tutulsa, lal olsa bile;                                                                                                                                                                                    

Konuşur kalbim sevda diliyle 

Gözlerim pusuda beklemekte                                                                                                                                                                  

Müjdeli bir haber gözlemekte,                                                                                                                                                                    

Gamla keder sıkboğaz etse de             

Elemlerle beni yüreğimde

Düşmeyeceğim ümitsizliğe.                                                                                                                                                              

Ama şikâyetlerim birikmekte                                                                                                                                                                             

Senin, aşkıma hissizliğinde! 

                   İzzettin ÖZGİBAR

                   Ekim 1979 Adana